I’m going to do something I rarely do… a Celtic Cross. I seldom ever read with it, but I need more than an extended 3-Card or the Q&A type of spreads I’ve been doing lately. I want something plain vanilla, but effective. Utilitarian. CC will do it up nice, I think. Usually I’m not a fan, but today it feels right. I’m just wanting to know the general energies and focus around my husband’s possible deployment to Haiti. I’m doing better than I was, but I am thinking that I need to try to read on it. Let’s stick with the classics, eh? I need to overcome my current mystical malaise.
Overall, I feel like I got pretty sound results here. No nonsense, and using the CC seemed to address my own issues, as well as that which impact my husband, and the situation as a whole. I’m still worried, but feeling more grounded. More hopeful. Of course this is a predestined course… things could change. If he does go, this is the possible outcome. I don’t feel that sense of 6 of Wands "DAMN! I NAILED IT! BOO-YEAH!". Instead, it’s more of a 7 of Pents "Okay… I worked through it. I *think* I see where we’re going with this." Since my readings have been such crap lately, I will take it. No Seven of Swords here… I’ll try to listen, even if I don’t like what i hear.
King of Cups
My husband is a really cuppy guy, with some pents tendancies. Neither of us have that air thing. He needs more fire, which I provide. I need more water, which he can spare. He’s very sensitive, but hides it very well. He doesn’t seem like an emotional guy, since he’s pretty well balanced. Yet it’s there all the same. I chose the King of Cups mainly because of his emotional state with this whole issue. The King of Pents part of him is fine with going, as it’s part of his job. It’s for a very good cause. It’s not a war-time deployment, it’s actually a very compassionate one and he’s a compassionate guy.
The atmosphere surrounding the central issue…
Eight of Wands
BAM! Things are happening pretty quickly. No one expected any of this to happen so fast, except that one geologist that PREDICTED that they were going to have an earthquake. We got the news that he was going FAST. When we finally get the "get ready" phone call, he’ll be leaving FAST. Right now, we’re waiting for this to happen, and trying to be nimble. It’s difficult knowing, but feeling powerless.
The obstacle that stands in the way…
I am seeing Death here as representing the current state Haiti itself. It’s been pummelled, beaten, battered, and broken beyond recognition. It’s almost like the whole country existed on lifesupport for an extended time, only to have some rash jerk suddenly pull the plug. The whole place literally and figuratively stinks of death. I don’t normally go for the jugular with the Death card, but it certainly applies here. Even though it’s poising itself for a possible transformation and it’s good that he can be a part of that, I still can’t help but worry. I expected a deployment this year, and we’d already talked about it. I was totally fine with the other possible options. My husband doesn’t do anything thing that would usually put him in harm’s way. He only goes to places with nice cushy air bases, rather than a war zone. No Iraq… No Afghanastan. This situation is far from the norm.
The goal, or the best we can achieve without a dramatic change of priorities:.
Six of Wands (Victory)
6 of Win! There are some good reasons for him to go. Very good indeed. It’s a tragic situation, and being part of the relief efforts is a huge thing. A noble thing. I am proud of him for committing to it. It would help considerably. We’re also in a slower time of year for his regular job, and the extra money and hazard pay would be absolutely welcomed. This could also make a difference with his current work situation/assignment as well, in a good way, as he’s up for a promotion soon. The recognition could help move things along quicker. Not bad at all… It’s certainly not all bad.
The foundation on which the situation is based:
The High Priestess
I knew… I knew… I knew this was going to happen! Not the Haiti thing, but the deployment thing. I saw it. I knew he’d have to, I was okay with it. We both had some intuitive inklings telling us that it would be a possibility to consider, both for his promotion and for our financial situation. The HP also indicates that I’ll be spending some time alone, but that it’s not neccessarily a lonely time. Perhaps it is time that I need, but for now the mystery remains. I don’t know why I need it, but part of me feels I do. I miss him when he’s gone, but there are also parts I don’t mind. The HP isn’t answering, so there must be a reason.
A passing influence or something to be released:
Six of Pentacles
Aha… I’m seeing this one pretty clearly. Again… it’s back to the work thing. He’s been on short term orders for the last few months. A few days here, a week or two there. Assigned in pieces, with the paychecks coming at odd intervals. It’s not unlike working on a contract or a 1099. Annoying. I thought they’d stopped that, but with funny stuff in the budget towards yearend, they had to go back to it. It’s put us in a situation that leaves us at the mercy of redtape and commanding officers. Nothing gets done until they approve this set of orders or that, so he can work. They dole them out in tiny pieces. A few here… a few there. We’ll be playing this game again until April. If my husband goes to Haiti, this won’t happen. This would be good.
An approaching influence or something to be embraced:
5 of Pents
Aha… For all of my whining, it’s not as bad as I think it is. There is certainly a hardship for me at home alone, but it’s not as bad as I am making it out to be. Seriously. Things might be bad where he is going, but I am seeing that he is part of an effort that will bring hope to many, offer sanctuary, and help rebuild. There is a 5 of Pents on both sides. I’m not seeing clearly that I’m not really personally going to be in any real hardship. And the Haitians? There will be help they didn’t anticipate, directly from his efforts. We gotta go with it… Hardships here are all about perception. Look for the light in the window. That’s what needs to be done.
Our role or attitude:
Six of Cups
Sharing freely of what you have, offering it up for the greater good, and doing so gladly and unselfishly. Hmmm… Ideally, yes. I can give up my husband for a few months, particularly when I think of how awful it is for the people there. Even a small thing could make a big difference. He feels more or less the same way. In reality, there are a lot of different parts, pros and cons, and risks and rewards. Yet when it comes down to it, I admire him for doing it. I always support the troops (i sleep next to one), but I seldom find myself supporting war of anykind. This is very, very different. THis card is all about the good will, and with all of my self-interest aside, I think we both feel that way.
The environment and the people we’re interacting with:
Eight of Cups
It looks like he is definitely leaving… It’s not a picnic or a party. It’s not going to be as fun as going to Guam. It will not be easy, but the tides are moving him in that direction. He’s leaving behind an old role, and preparing to take on a new one. This would have happened anyways, but this deployment is part of the journey. Part of the process. He’s ready for it.
Our hopes, fears, or an unexpected element that will come into play.
Ten of Swords
It’s a difficult situation, and could be dangerous. We have no idea how it will pan out, or even what he will be doing. Yet… I don’t see this as something to watch out for. It’s a dark cloud on the horizon, but one that will not amount to anything. It’s an internal struggle. Worry. Anxiety. Doubt. What will happen? Why us? Why them? Fear is my fear. This may be a good thing overall, but how can I not worry? How? No need to be the martyr, but I’ll probably be a whiney baby. The good thing? It’s not going to last, and doesn’t appear to be the overall energy. It’s just one component.
The ultimate outcome should we continue on this course:
Ten of Cups
In the end, it’s all good. Like I keep saying… It’s good for the people of Haiti. Every soldier there is doing a job that is vital to helping them survive this tragedy. He’s one of those. It’s good for us, in a lot of ways, even if the short term is sucky. I see it as having a strong impact on us, our home, our finances, and… a happy return home. That part will, no doubt, be fun. Happy. Happy. Happy. Joy. Joy. Joy. Perhaps this is the transformation aspect of Death kicking in, or the conclusion to the HP’s time of reflective solitude (which I always experience during a deployment. This ain’t the first, nor the last).
I can live with that. Totally.