Earth, Wind, Fire… Hey, What’s a Brotha’ Gotta Do To Get Some Water Up In Here?

Earth, Wind, Fire… Hey, What’s a Brotha’ Gotta Do To Get Some Water Up In Here?


The High Priestess from Crowley’ Thoth deck.

I’ve been thinking, it all boils down to Water, Fire, and Earth for me. Air is an afterthought, and for me isn’t really all that important. Sorry, Swords. You’re S.O.L. I think with my gut and my heart. My brain? Uhhhh… Prolly not.

I feel as if I am two different people sometimes, but neither one of them is a role. That would be too simple. I am that funny, creative, witty, magnetic,bold, charismatic, stylish Queen of Wands who acknowledges her friendly, warm, wise, pragmatic Queen of Pentacles roots. Fire, rooted from burning too hot or too destructively by just enough Earth. Water is something I lack, or do I? Everything I do, or have said, or experienced in the material world springs from Fire and Earth, but my inner-world, the parts of me that are hidden are made from water. I hide my more spiritual side. I hide any depth I might have. I don’t know why. Why am I afraid to be that person? Why am I afraid of the Unknown Reason part of me is so sad? I’m not depressed, but this well-hidden and tender underbelly of sadness colors everything I’ve worked so well to hide. Just what is it that I’m trying to protect? The Fire in me TAKES all it can take, because the Earth in me says “You might as well… It won’t last long.” The Water that I lack feels the loss before anything even can be taken.

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Existentially, Yours. Love- Gods, Monsters, & Friends

Existentially, Yours. Love- Gods, Monsters, & Friends


Eris, from the Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy

I am a creature of intuition, more than anything else. If I follow the path of “what feels right”, it tends to take me to some very interesting places. For a long time, I’ve struggled with my eclecticism, thinking that perhaps those who follow a more traditional spiritual path are right to be wary of people like me, who appear on the surface to “cherry pick” their beliefs. I’m struggling to let that go, and my work with the tarot has helped to that end. I’m nowhere near feeling comfortable with all this, and I suppose if I was feeling comfortable, it would mean I was doing something wrong. It could also mean something akin to cherry picking the good-happy-shiny-people-holding-hands stuff that darts along the path, and tossing out the deep, dark, scary, cthonic aspects of my gods that causes me to confront the darker and more hidden parts of myself. These are things that are hard to look at. Hard to celebrate. But, as I’ve found, I don’t really have a choice. If I am to grow or evolve in any spiritual manner, they must be tended to. It fits into the bigger picture. It’s a cohesive whole. It works together. I suppose that is what is more important than anything else.

I return to the issue again and again, trying to be thoughtful and respectful to my critics, rather than defensive. I’ve also said time and time again that I’d not advocate this type of path for everyone. Yes, the exploration is one of the fun parts, but you never know what type of skeletons you’re going to unleash behind Door#1. You’ve got to be willing to work though what comes up, even if it’s painful…

Obligatory Rambling about Gods & Monsters & Kundalini & My Questionable Sanity To Follow… Lack of Tarot & Lack of Sense May Be Present, but What We Lack in Tarot & Sense We Make Up for in Rambliciously Philosophical Style fnord.

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6 of Pents… Take A Penny, Leave a Penny

6 of Pents… Take A Penny, Leave a Penny


Keywords: Exchange. Opposites. Having or Not Having…. Knowledge, Power, Resources. Giving/Receving. Teaching/Learning. Measuring. Weighing. Doling Out. Rich/Poor. Balance of Power. Affluence/Poverty. Support. Control/Lack of Control.

What Is Going On In This Card: A seemingly affluent and well-dressed man holding a delicately balanced set of gold scales carefully appears to measure out morsels of food to give to the poor beggars who kneel at his feet. They appear cold, hungry, worse for wear, and very grateful towards him for the small crumbs he’s doling out. Their hands are outstreched as he drops the food into them. He does not hand it to them gently, and has an air of authority or power over them. He doesn’t seem haughty about it, more or less that it’s his duty to help, although he displays little warmth towards the poor souls. He’s not compelled by compassion, perhaps more by civic duty. They are desperate, clothes in tatters, and will take whatever they can get. They do not have the resources he has, but they are each given an equal share in what he can give.

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Getting to Know You: Tarot of the Sephiroth

Getting to Know You: Tarot of the Sephiroth


Copyright (C) 1999 by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.

This is a deck interview with my latest addition, The Tarot of the Sephiroth. I ask some questions, pull some cards to see how it answers. This deck has serious personality! It’s bold, different, accessible yet esoteric all at the same time. It wants you to know that just because it’s pretty, that does not mean it does not hold answers to The Mysteries™.

Hi, I’m Eris… Can you please introduce yourself to me?

  • The Universe
  • The Moon

Well, well, well now! I think this means you pretty much cover the gamut from the inner landscape of spirits, gods, dreams and visions to the outward material world with great style and panache. I’m thinking you’re a do it all kind of deck, and that you do it with well-earned confidence. I’m feeling good about getting to know you better… I’m thinking you’re the total package. All that, and a bag of chips, as they say? I know, you’re not bragging, just telling it like it is. You have a lot of secrets to unlock and also a lot of wisdom you’ll easily share. It’s intriguing.

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The Cat Ass Tarot

The Cat Ass Tarot


I made myself a little something neat, that’s been working out pretty well. I do most of my reading and Fun With Tarot™ on the couch in front of the TV, within arms reach of my Big Ol’ Basket of Decks & Books™ (Hey, it’s better than a pile on the floor!). I just do it where I’m comfortable, and that happens to be without a table. I just can’t seem to read anywhere else. It’s hard to read using a crappy plastic laptop desk, and it’s especially precarious leaving a spread out on the couch, bed, counter, or kitchen table since my cards seem to be a cat magnet. I’ll often do a spread, and come back to it later. It’s not the most efficient way to do things, but sometimes I need to give things more thought. When you return to a spread to discover that a 25lb Himalayan Chub-O-Lard feline is sprawled out on his back on top of your cards, it’s easy to get annoyed (although it’s mildly amusing). When this happens a lot, it can make you wonder if your favorite deck is possessed by the spirit of a crazy cat lady bearing cat treats and head scratchies.

I had an old tray from one of those tray tables with a stand sitting around, and I made a tarot tray… I painted it dark indigo- purple with coppery glitter, put nice cloth to line it, and voila! It’s perfect… I can’t do a really big spread on it, but for most of the quick and dirty 3-7 card stuff I seem to prefer for now, it’s perfect. The nice thing is, I can leave a spread on it and come back to it, move it around, and keep it far away from that damned cat’s ass. It’s actually pretty handy… plus it’s a good way to have portable “sacred space”. Plus, I could always use it as a table if I wanted to.

Of course, the fuzzy little bastard has discovered that my tarot tray is yet another surface to spread his blubber lard self all over. He also seems to really like my World Spirit deck. He likes laying on top of that one, or bothering me while I’m reading with it the best.

The point of my story? Fuck this shit. I’m getting a dog.

The other point of my story? I like my tarot tray… It’s neat. Hooray for me.

Seven of Wands… This is Sparta, Bitches!

Seven of Wands… This is Sparta, Bitches!


Keywords:
Agression. Defiance. Valor. Conviction. Chutzpah. Character. Balls. Standing Up for Beliefs. Fighting the Good Fight. Fighting for a Cause. Standing up to Authority. Unyielding. Being Assertive. Defending Yourself. Opposition. Rebellion. Being the Underdog. Against the Odds. Kickin’ Ass.
What Is Going On In This Card:
A brave man, stands ready to fight for what he believes in, despite the odds being against him. He is outnumbered, yet he still wields his weapon boldly and with a great amount of personal resolve. His opponents have backed him into a corner, and it looks as if they could easily gang up on him and push him off the cliff, sending him plummetting downward to the rocks below. He is not going to give up that easily, though. It’s not in his nature to do so. He will fight to the bitter end, and he will not stand down so easily. He is an agressive fighter, scrappy, and perhaps a bit tougher and more resilient than his opponents imagined. It will not be an easy fight for any of them. His idea of Fight Mode is fueled by ideals and personal conviction. He will not be oppressed! He will fight! They have given him no choice. His victory remains to be seen, but it will be one hell of a fight.
How It Makes Me Feel:
Succinctly put, this card has big ol’ brass balls. Cojones the size of cannon balls! I don’t get a good-vs-evil feel, as much as it seems to be a lone dissenter rebelling against the rigidity of the current regime. I like that about it, but part of me also thinks that it would be easy to have one’s judgment and critical thinking clouded by anger and aggression. Whether your ideals are noble, or selfish, fighting isn’t always the very best answer. It doesn’t always lead to a solution, and there is a bit of a temper than comes with the convictions here that could cause things to turn badly. Do you run, or do you stay to fight? Sometimes, it’s hard to know. Other times, you don’t get a choice. It’s all about the William Wallace and the blue face paint. I’m reminded of Ralphie from A Christmas Story, who finally snapped after the nasty bully Scott Farkas and his toadie pushed him too far. Ralphie let loose, although he was outnumbered and the other boys were much bigger and older. He would not be bullied anymore, and could no longer sit idly by and let it happen. The kid kicked some ass too, and rightly so. That’s the 7 of Wands at it’s best. Sadly, I think of the Chinese students in Tienamen Square. They couldn’t have imagined that the tanks wouldn’t stop, but they stood up to them anyhow. They knew the opposition they faced, yet still stood up for what they believed in. Of course, the ending was a great and terrible tragedy. It shows where 7 of Wands can go horribly wrong.
What Does The Card Have To Say?
THIS IS SPARTA!!!
“We’re not gonna take it! No! We’re not gonna take it! We’re not gonna take it… Anymore!”- Twisted Sister
We’re kickin’ ass and (hopefully) takin’ names, so… bring a pen, Hoss!
Ramblings of a Complete & Total Deck Head.

Ramblings of a Complete & Total Deck Head.


Okay, I’m going to do an inventory of all of the decks I have. I just ordered the Tarot of the Sephiroth (Squee! Amazon Prime and free shipping are going to be the death of me!), the Navigators Tarot of the Mystic Sea (I’ve never seen this one before! It looks quite reflective and water-driven, which I need being a bit of a Firebug. I fell in love with it… I can’t wait to use it), and the Halloween Tarot… in a TIN (I had the other Halloween tarot, but this is the good one. I’ve heard it packs a serious punch for a lighthearted themed deck, and my husband who is a big Halloweenie is excited).  Normally I don’t get three decks at once, and I was going to hold off for a while, since I have enough to keep me busy. Well… my muse needs to be fed. She demands more cool decks! I suppose it’s better than collecting stamps or firearms.

The decks first ten are my Top Ten all-time favorites… for now. I’m always adding, so contents may shift in transit.

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